Becoming a spiritually aware person involves far more than meditating a few minutes a day and reading your horoscope.
It is a LIFELONG COMMITMENT of doing the inner work (tending the garden) and becoming truly connected with “what is”.
I have spent the past 3 decades of my life diving deep into the esoteric, the occult, the hyper-dimensional…everything and anything to guide and ultimately enhance my soul’s journey in this apparently simulated 3D Matrix we live in.
But there is only so much I can do from a physical(body) experience level to elevate my consciousness from here and well beyond.
There eventually comes a time in the higher path seeker's journey where an external aid is required.
A powerful loving agent to connect yourself with something seemingly existing multiple planes removed(above)from the linear world we are incarnated into.
So in early December 2019, for the third time in my life, I took it upon myself to have a profound experience with the plant medicine (entheogen) known as 5-MeO-DMT.
I was very excited to be accompanied by my amazing wife Monica, who did 5-MeO-DMT for the very first time.
Both of our experiences will be shared in this blog, as our unique perspectives provide a full and complete picture(advanced user to neophyte) of what it’s like to use 5-MeO-DMT from start to finish.
So What Exactly Is 5-MeO-DMT?
Here is a brief synopsis of 5-MeO-DMT’s origins:
5-methoxy-N,N-dimethyltryptamine (5-MeO-DMT) is a potent, fast-acting, psychedelic substance, which acts as a serotonin 5-HT-1-A/5-HT-2A/C receptor agonist.
The psychedelic substance 5-MeO-DMT was initially isolated from the bark of the plant Dictyoloma incanescens and has also been found in the milky-white secretion produced in the skin and the parotoid glands of the Bufo alvarius toad, also known by the scientific name “Incilius alvarius” and more commonly referred to as the “Colorado river toad” or “Sonoran desert toad.
In other words this naturally-occurring psychoactive molecule has the power to create a radically profound spiritual experience.
Many people take 5-MeO-DMT as a way to psychologically heal themselves when they just can't experience a higher level of consciousness on their own:
“An experience with 5-MeO-DMT is the most intense experience a human can go through, other than their own birth and death.
It consistently takes one into the very deepest state of non-ordinary reality.
Participants often return with a feeling of a oneness with all and the idea that the feeling of separation from this state is just an illusion; that we are always in a connection to the ‘source’.”
Those experienced with taking plant medicine will point out that 5-MeO-DMT is similar to the hallucinogenic molecule DMT (N,N-dimethyltryptamine):
Indeed, both molecules have been used for thousands of years in traditional South American shamanic practices.
But there are significant differences between the two compounds that extend far beyond their chemical structure.
Unlike 5-MeO-DMT, DMT is more commonly found in plants and animals located both on the land on under the sea.
But more importantly: 5-MeO-DMT is 6 TIMES MORE POTENT than DMT, not to mention much faster-acting.
This is not an over-exaggeration.
Even the prestigious lab coat scientists at John Hopkins have publicly stated 5-MeO-DMT is nothing like the “shrooms” you may have ingested at a freshman-year frat party:
"This is a very potent and powerful psychedelic substance that usually has an onset within seconds and a person is completely incapacitated…They are completely in a whole different realm of consciousness for 20 to 60 minutes."
“It’s such an intense experience that, in most cases, doing it at a party isn’t safe. It’s not a recreational drug. If people get dosed too high, they can ‘white out’ and disassociate from their mind and body.”
What Does The Science Say About 5-MeO-DMT?
Due to 5-MeO-DMT being a Schedule I controlled substance in the United States, there have been very few comprehensive studies conducted on its effectiveness.
Being Jay Campbell, I have to ask why that is?
A schedule I controlled substance for a naturally occurring molecule identified in human body fluids including urine, blood, and cerebrospinal fluid?
Why are the rulers of this realm not wanting us to have access to it?
In a 2019 study published in The American Journal of Drug and Alcohol Abuse, 80% of the 362 adults surveyed said that 5-MeO-DMT led to significant improvements in the anxiety and/or depression they were suffering.
Specifically, they commented on how the psychedelic experience carried significant spiritual and personal meaning to them.
The scientists involved in this study hypothesized that major neurological changes to their brain likely played a part in the participants’ experiences.
They even went as far as to suggest 5-MeO-DMT may be as effective as psilocybin(mushrooms), while requiring a shorter period of time to achieve the same therapeutic benefits.
Allow me to state right here, right now, that no amount of 'shrooms' will replicate a heroic dosage of 5-MeO.
In my experience, it is not even close.
An epidemiological study of 515 5-MeO-DMT users conducted last year found that the majority of respondents experienced positive changes in drug use, alcoholism and post-traumatic stress disorder.
Even more notable was how very few of the respondents reported any cravings for 5-MeO-DMT, or abused the drug following a single use.
The additional commentary behind each participant’s use of 5-MeO-DMT was profound:
Among those who consumed 5-MeO-DMT more than once, 54% used it once a year or less.
The respondents cited spiritual exploration (68%) as their primary reason for using the drug, followed by recreation (18%) and psychological healing (12%).
The vast majority of respondents reported mystical-type experiences under the influence of the drug, including a feeling a unity with what was felt to be greater than their personal self and an experience of pure being or awareness.
But 37% also reported experiencing challenging experiences like anxiousness and fear.
Most also considered the effects to be more intense than other psychedelic drugs like LSD and magic mushrooms.
In an individual case report, using 5-MeO-DMT alongside ibogaine in a military veteran with alcohol use disorder led to remarkable changes in his behavior.
Not only did his overall mood improve, but his reduced cravings and cessation of alcohol use were sustained when he came back for a check-up 1 month later.
And some studies done in cell cultures and rats suggest that 5-MeO-DMT may be able to reduce chronic inflammation, while increasing brain plasticity and improving neuronal health.
We indeed have a long way to go before the science makes any definitive conclusions, but so far it demonstrates great potential for serving all of mankind.
However, no published paper could possibly encapsulate a fraction of the experience Monica and I had on our individual journeys.
To say we were radically transformed is a massive understatement, as we both had truly profound experiences.
Ones which will continue to mold and evolve our missions and purpose for the remainder of this physical incarnation.
Today is the day we publicly share the REAL and raw version of what happened from start to finish.
<NOTE>Out of respect for our Administrator of the blessed sacrament of plant medicine and the individuals in our circle, names and locations are being withheld.
Jay Campbell’s Personal Experience With Using 5-MeO-DMT
I decided to volunteer first out of all the members in our group, as I had already manifested a soul uplifting experience beforehand.
Because of my deep inner contemplation and study of the laws of the quantum, I manifested a reality(well in advance) where I would have an amazing, cathartic experience of PURE LOVE.
I was powerfully devotional to the idea I would fully let go and allow the source frequency to guide me in the path most necessary for my soul to learn and grow.
I even made sure to clearly state my intentions out loud to our administrator and our circle before receiving the the sacred sacrament of plant medicine.
I received my 5-MeO-DMT dose of 14 mg from the administrator, which is an aggressive amount to consume for an experienced entheogen user.
I immediately fell under the influence of 5-MeO-DMT, and within minutes I was having an otherworldly experience.
It’s difficult to describe my experience in conscious word language, so allow me to do my very best.
When you are under the influence of 5-MeO-DMT you hope to feel fully connected to the Unified Field, aka Source Energy, aka GOD.
But "God" isn't what most people expect it to be (normally due to religious and or mainstream conditioning.
God is better defined as a harmonic sound wave of pure divine energy.
A field of inner connection one becomes fully synchronized with.
A pure vibrational frequency of bliss, joy and resonance.
Essentially it is pure love wrapped up in the greatest laughter and smile you could ever experience.
After all, at our base essence we are nothing more than whirring electrons (aka biophotonic plasma energy).
As you lay down on the mattress provided to you(the launching pad), you sense or feel “free” from your physical body.
And while your eyes are open, you can’t really see anything in the traditional sense.
There is no physical or visual manifestation…just a pure resonant frequency.
Our administrator was very advanced (having done more than 1500 ceremonies since 2006)and the set and setting created for the experience provided everything one would need (music, lighting, vivid colors/imagery).
The best way to describe it(upon being a couple of minutes into the experience) would be holographic fractals changing in color and shape multiple times a second.
To help you understand this better, imagine it like an orgasmic out-of-body experience.
You can sense and FEEL yourSELF or sense your state of being-ness, but as if your soul is outside of your physical body.
I could literally feel myself falling into a place of full surrender, right as my soul was becoming detached and free from my physical vessel.
It was my purest intention to surrender no matter what and there is no doubt I manifested this reality at the outset of my journey.
It's a state of PURE LOVE that cannot be described in words.
I was touching my heart the whole time, saying “Thank you, I love you” over and over again as tears of joy were streaming down my face.
(This was retold to me by Monica when the experience was over and we were driving home later that night. My recall of my experience is significant and appears to grow even stronger at various stages of deep contemplation).
I was in a place of full and total surrender.
I sensed a zero point moment of perfect acceptance and full allowance of the Universe and all it's awe and spectacular wonder.
After this experience, which lasted roughly 15-20 minutes, the administrator asked me "would you like some more medicine".
KNOWING I was in a state of pure joy, pure gnosis, I took another dose of 9 mg (25 mg heroic total dosage) and was catapulted into an even deeper level of consciousness.
The next 10-15 minutes seemed like a couple of days and the sheer joy and love I experienced can not be put into words.
I was clearly having what most people familiar with Shamanic journey's would classify as having a Buddhic experience.
Upon coming back into my physical body and reconnecting with my ego, I quickly realized the journey was going to completely alter my already well defined mission of striving to raise human consciousness to the highest levels possible.
I achieved an even further awareness of my purpose and mission, and felt overwhelmingly inspired to serve it with maximum intentionality.
This will be said many more times, but words will never do justice in defining my experience.
I am eternally grateful to source and Mother Earth to be able to receive such abundant blessings.
A Word of Warning for *Some Individuals* When Taking 5-MeO-DMT (Or Any Plant Medicine)
Some people will say you should avoid using 5-MeO-DMT if you even the slightest bit worried about using a consciousness-enhancing plant medicine.
I would agree with this, but for a much deeper and more important reason.
Remember the study I quoted earlier, where 37% of the participants said they experienced anxiousness during their 5-MeO-DMT trip?
Well, it turns out that FEAR is at the very root of any negative experience with 5-MeO-DMT:
“The participants completed assessments of depression, anxiety, stress, life satisfaction, ego dissolution, mindfulness, and altered states of consciousness. They also provided the researchers with saliva samples, allowing them to check inflammatory biomarkers such as cortisol.
The researchers found that participants tended to have higher mindfulness rating of non-judgment and reduced symptoms of depression directly after the 5-MeO-DMT session, as well at the 7-day follow-up.
However, five of the 11 participants reported adverse effects after consuming the psychedelic, such as feeling scared and confused, and three participants reported adverse effects in the week after the session.
‘This suggests that adverse events from the psychedelic experience are tolerable but challenging and occur in a sizeable fraction of 5-MeO-DMT users,’ the researchers said.”
If you are anxious, nervous, worried, or with fear, the laws of the quantum will project those feelings back into your fields.
There is so much wisdom hidden behind this awareness, and I want to uncover every layer so you can KNOW and FEEL it.
If you are a fear or trauma ridden individual who has not taken the time to perform inner spiritual work (via meditation, contemplation, grounding, sun gazing, deep introspection, regression hypnosis, QHHT(Quantum Healing Hypnosis Technique) energy work, or anything that constitutes SOUL WORK) to both integrate your trauma and address your fears, you will likely end up resisting the plant medicine.
Remember what you resist, persists.
The plant medicine WILL NOT - I repeat, WILL NOT - rid you of your fears.
The plant will only provide what you're innately focused on, as IT IS an amplifier.
The plant ALWAYS gives what one needs…and what fearful people normally manifest is the same vibrational frequency into their reality.
The first law of quantum physics tells us we get what we focus on.
Nervous, angst ridden individuals are projecting the same vibrational alignment back into their fields.
The cosmic mirror is always in effect.
If you focus on being in fear, you are going to GET fear.
The plant does not “allow” you to face your fear because it is ONLY YOU who can face it.
The only person who will allow you to face your fears is you, and 5-MeO-DMT will only amplify the fears resonating inside your core state of being.
The answer lies deep inside of you, and the plant is merely a tool to access this inner knowing.
But the trick to uncovering the answer is full and complete surrender.
As you start entering the source field and become overcome with the brain wave states provided by 5-MeO-DMT, you MUST fully surrender to the experience and LET GO knowing all is well!
If you RESIST any part of the process, you are in effect vibrating a dissonant frequency and experience into your field.
Those in resistance are normally living in fear.
Fear of what?
Normally the fear of death or their finite sense of their physical being.
It is my opinion, that until one learns to overcome fear via regularly performing 'inner work', plant medicine will continue to amplify dissonance into your fields.
So long as you fear ANYTHING, entheogens function as a cosmic mirror, reflecting more of the same into your life.
This is precisely what I mean when I say the following in nearly each and every Monday newsletter:
What you RESIST will continue to PERSIST.
Sadly, mainstream society has recently brainwashed many into believing plant medicine will rid them of their inner demons and turmoils.
This could not be any further from the truth, and it is a major reason why spirituality as a whole has become so diluted and commoditized.
Therefore, I highly recommend you DO NOT use plant medicine if you are living your life in a state of resistance.
More importantly, you should avoid using 5-MeO-DMT in any group setting unless you and the people in your circle are of the right vibration (ideally above 300 LOC in the Hawkins scale).
Monica and I witnessed this first hand with individuals in our circle who partook after we had experienced our journeys.
It was very apparent that both individuals had a lot of unintegrated trauma and likely attachments of a significantly lowered vibration.
They both expressed fear, anxiety and nervousness when spoken to by the circle administrator upon announcing their intentions before partaking in the blessed sacrament of 5-MeO-DMT.
And as you now know, they violated the very first law of quantum physics.
By telling the group leader they were fearful and scared, they had already manifested this reality into their (and unfortunately our)experience.
They were both CHOOSING to vibrate the same dissonant frequency of fear.
Their experiences were IMO extremely negative.
Screaming at the top of their lungs, vomiting/purging and shaking violently like a leaf.
This went on back and forth between both of these two individuals.
I'm hopeful they were able to receive something positive from the experience now they've had a couple of weeks to heal and integrate.
There is no question their individual experiences were part of their journey and neither Monica nor I judge them for it.
My wife Monica who went immediately after me had a profoundly different yet amazing experience with 5-MeO-DMT .
Monica Campbell’s Perspective On The 5-MeO-DMT Journey
Just like myself, Monica was prepared to receive the blessed 5-MeO-DMT and was fully intentional about asking to receive love and light guidance.
The group leader taught her how to inhale the medicine properly, and her first dose was 9 mg (the second one was 7 mg, for a total of 16 mg).
For Monica, her intention going into this journey was to receive newfound awareness.
Did she ever.
As she allowed the medicine to take over, she also could not “see” anything.
But she felt a vibrational knowing; an energetic frequency that resonated with her own expression of pure love.
In just a few minutes, she could feel her soul leaving her body.
I can tell you that Monica was speaking completely in tongues, which from an outside perspective looks bizarre.
Yet I felt I understood what she was experiencing totally.
As our circle held space for Monica, she proceeded to writhe around on the launching pad and flop her legs back and forth(this is what administrators of 5-MeO-DMT refer to as the 'Cosmic Infant' experience).
She clearly appeared to be having a conversation with surrounding souls in her/our space.
As she was engaging with these apparently ethereal beings in conversation with a language impossible to understand(if you ever heard somebody speak in tongues also known as glossalalia), she began to embrace her soul being outside of her body.
“Why do I have to have a body?
I don’t have to have a body….but I have this body, isn’t that great?”
“I love you…I love you…I love you…I love you…I love you…I love you”
In Monica's own words:
"I was able to recognize that in order for my soul to truly understand this lifetime, it had to experience what it was like to be in a body."
And at the same time, it was surreal to be outside of her body.
No limitations, just the connection to being…to a realm of all-knowing (aka WHAT IS).
A state of pure innocence where she realized we all CHOSE our bodies before incarnating to Planet Earth.
A discovery of how our purpose is to EXPERIENCE life and enjoy the magic of our souls being in a physical vessel.
Monica describes it as being “inter-dimensionally connected”:
When we go back to the Source and feel the vibrations, all of your demons, fears, and perceptions of scarcity no longer matter.
When you learn how to let go of what you believe someone’s experience HAS to be, you release the notion of “it has to be my experience”.
It’s a collected experience, one where we all get to unite in a loving matter.
Where we can be there authentically for someone else as they expose their bare soul to you.
Too often in life, we are quick to judge about what we experience in life.
We think “This is the worst thing to ever happen in my life” and this judgment is what creates our pain.
But if we embrace these trials and tribulations as part of life’s ebb-and-flow, we can feel the “magnetic-ness” of life.
Our souls choose to enter our bodies so they can experience what love feels like with the walls we build up in our lives.
And because we are in a body, we get to have the experience of expressing love.
It helps us appreciate the higher dimension of pure love, where there is no judgment or doubt.
Where you learn how to love regardless of what’s going on in your life.
One major disagreement Monica had with me was my opinion of fearful people taking the plant medicine.
She believes that it is possible for people to be strong enough to recognize their fear and move through it.
According to Monica, "By facing the fear, accepting the fear and being one with it, you are demonstrating your willingness to go through the experience."
It is an expression of truthfulness, as it allows you to fully connect to the experience (rather than trying to be someone you are not).
The plant opens up your awareness to what is already there…but if you dance with it and let it go, it can be a radically enjoyable experience.
All you have to do is breathe, and realize the possibility that you can overcome your inner fear if you simply decide to let go of it.
It involves learning how to surrender correctly from the stories you've told yourself and the trauma attached to them, rather than resist the negative experiences and become further attached to them.
In her mind, there’s an equally wonderful experience to be had with people who are of a less evolved level of awareness or a lower vibration.
It was good for those people to have their breakdowns and see the dark paths in front of them, as it served as an opportunity for her to send them her love.
For Monica, it can be easy to forget that part of the human experience involves doing things under the pretense of “This is what I want to do”.
So rather than fight this, she chose to send love to the other group members so they could feel it energetically.
“What I can control is what I can give you, so I’m here for you”
You can choose to give out love regardless of what other people are giving to you.
You get to decide what you give out and how you give it out.
It was a truly profound lesson for me and one I would have never thought of having myself.
Thank you Baby for giving me this experience, I love you!
Jay & Monica’s Final Thoughts On Their 5-MeO-DMT Journey
I still contend that because the other group members showed up in fear, the plant medicine amplified their fear and provided them a dissonant experience.
What one can not do is judge others on their experience.
I agree with what Monica says:
We need to have universal empathy and unconditional love for beings who have been through horrific trauma.
As she further puts it:
“To not have acceptance and judgment over another human being is the right path”.
And while any individual can choose to be strong enough to recognize their fear can be overcome, it’s an extremely small percentage of humans currently walking this path.
It is now my true mission and purpose to be a figure of light, love and reason.
To lead through my words, thoughts and actions in innovative and profound ways helping those ready to overcome their own fears.
I also maintain the stance plant medicine CAN BE an incredibly impactful therapy for everyone.
For people of the right vibration, it is a surreal and inspiring journey.
Using entheogens is the perfect opportunity to say “I am at peace” or “I drop all resistance”.
How Can I Learn More About 5-MeO-DMT?
The Aware Project also provides some good guidelines for understanding what is typically involved in a 5-MeO-DMT experience done with other people.
Viceland also has the wizards of DMT video here.
As for written material and research, there isn’t much available that gets my endorsement.
And while Rick Strassman’s “DMT: The Spirit Molecule” is revealing in how much we knew about plant medicine back in the 90s, our understanding of it has considerably changed.
I truly mean it when I say the experience of using 5-MeO-DMT cannot be fully encapsulated into words.
If you have the means, the right contacts and most importantly the right vibration, I highly recommend experiencing it for yourself.
Thank you so much for reading about my experience.
May my experience be a golden cipher for you to begin or further enhance yours.
I send you the deepest resonant vibration of love and light!